It’s Hard Out There for a Shrew.

Today I realised three things:
1. All the time I spend at the gym should really be dedicated to increasing my upper body strength,
2. Jesus put me on this earth to be His personal jester and,
3. banditry is damned hard in spite of what the general law abiding population may think.

Now before y’all get all excited and start dialling Crimestoppers to tip them off about that damn tief Shrew who you did always know was a blasted a bandit, (who de hell does call deyself a shrew? And wha de arse is a shrew anyway? Is a kinda fly or something?) allow me to expatiate upon the seeming illegality of my as yet undocumented actions. Today, not only did I have to jump my wall in order to gain access to my property, I also had to jimmy open a window to gain access to my house.

Of course it’s not the first time I’ve found myself in such a situation, but once you pass the age of twenty and sober up, it loses its glamour. For one thing, scaling a wall is no easy matter, but scaling a Trini wall is damn near impossible without the proper training. Sure, from the comfort of your couch the Black and Latino guys hired to play criminals make it look easy, but c’mon man, how can you trust a guy who plays pretend for a living? Besides it’s only when you notice the details of a trini wall do you realise how daunting the task truly is.

The average wall in Triniland has many purposes. Its main use is of course, to designate the boundaries of the property it encloses. It is also used as a landmark (Yeah drive! By de yellow wall dey!), a urinal, a deterrent to unsavoury neighbourhood characters such as pipers, cats and children (hence the toppings of broken bottles, iron spikes and razor wire), and a liming spot. Add to that: unplastered cement bricks, globs of mortar left by untidy masons and the mossy build up of neglect and you have yourself an obstacle course worthy of its own American Gladiators segment.

Some time ago I did a post on my various irrational fears (if I didn’t, I had the intention), one of which was getting the heel of my shoe stuck in a crack in the middle of the Priority Bus Route while an oncoming bus with a clueless driver bears down on me. The first Sunday of 2009, while crossing said Bus Route during my once per year pilgrimage to Mass, the strap which kept my four inch stiletto heeled shoes attached to my foot snapped. Hobbled, although the most apt word, still cannot describe my frenzied movements to the relative safety of the pavement. There are those who will say Satan was putting obstacles in my way, but I know the other dude was responsible for that. So when I was in front of chez Shrew and discovered that the keys I knew I had put in my bag weren’t there, there was no other place to look but up.

I mean, what else could explain the sudden proliferation of activity on the previously empty street? As soon as I placed my hands on my wall in preparation for ‘the hoist’, half the neighbourhood suddenly decided that they had to pass in front of my house at that particular moment. For the record, it’s bloody hard to look innocently interested in perusing the minutiae of cement bonded bricks while a gaggle of children play bicycle tag in the street behind you. Thankfully after about 15 minutes or eight years (I’m not really sure how much time passed), they decided to take their inane game somewhere else. I say thankfully because by then I was dangerously close to becoming permanently cross-eyed.

Finally the street regained its quietude; time to make my move. It was then reality bitch-slapped me – I am freaking heavy. I swear, on my first try, my spindly arms cursed me. The second time they threatened to sue, and on my third and a half attempt (I got stuck halfway over), they announced that they were divorcing me and wanted custody of my torso.

Getting into the house was even worse. Imagine balancing precariously on an unwieldy barrel to pry open a window while a 100lb dog tries to mate with your leg. I don’t remember having all this trouble back in the day. The people who do this stuff willingly for a living are truly not normal.

Someone once told me that I should learn from all my experiences, therefore I must say I have learnt that I am not Houdini and so the next time I find myself in this predicament, I’ll rely on the professionals; I’m going to find a bandit and pay him or her (I’m equal opportunity) to break into my house for me.

Why Bother?

You know there's a saying : the more I know of people the more I like my dogs? Well the older I get the more I can relate to that statement. I like people less and less as time goes by.

When I was little I was a screamer. Yep. Man, I had lung power that would rival that of Pavarotti. And my "terrible two" tantrums lasted well into my pre-teen days. But I only displayed my talent when I was forced to "socialise". Everyone thought something was wrong with me. My aunts, uncles and cousins were convinced that I was possessed by demons. Actually they still are...

The truth is I was never too fond of people. Now that doesn't mean I don't get along with them. My interpersonal relationships with my co-workers and acquantainces are excellent, and I've never been accused of being unfriendly or unpleasant. However, if given a choice I would always choose solitude. It's less stressful. By far. Besides, lately I've been noticing an irritance I experience whenever I have to deal with people; especially those at my place of work.

Now I realise that my job is one that belongs in the top twenty (at least) of the stressful jobs list, but is it really necessary for the people who work with me to behave like @$$holes ALL the time?

And the issue doesn't stop at work. It's EVERYONE I know. I no longer call the ones I'm usually acquainted with because I'm really not interested in hearing them boast about who they laid, wants to lay them, how much money they're making and their job promotions; or whine about their job, their girlfriend/boyfriend/person they're sleeping with at the moment/their parents...

Of course I recognize that while I'm complaining about how people irritate me, others probably have the same grievance about me. I highly doubt that though. Didn't I just say that I've been avoiding any contact with everyone? It's just too much effort maintaining all these contacts. Especially when they are barely tolerated. I'm 25 and I have yet to meet someone I like enough to endure their presence for long periods without getting bored, annoyed or both. And contrary to what the aforementioned family members say, I know it's not me; it's them.

It's like this: I don't see the point of surrounding oneself with persons who cannot be relied upon. Why must I invest my time and energy into people who don't give a fat rat's arse about me and my welfare? I may as well be alone. Hence my present position. So I suppose I should revise my stance:- it's not that I want to have nothing to do with people. I would prefer to associate myself with those who are honest, sensitive to others' feelings and a host of other positive qualities which are too numerous to mention here.

Until I can find such personages, I shall continue to be irritated and exasperated with the shallow cretins I have to face day in, day out.